God is SO GOOD y’all.
So in my last Instagram post, I briefly mentioned in my caption that I was helping out with a bible study on Wednesday nights. Basically, in more depth, I’m an apprentice: someone who shadows the leaders of the study to learn for training to become a study group leader in the future. However, I didn’t get to choose what group I wanted to be in or who I wanted to shadow. My church just put me there.
This week, I’m really trying to be intentional in giving up my anxieties to God.
It’s been going really well, but let me tell you, not being anxious about tonight was hard. Sure, I was excited for this new chapter to begin and to get more plugged in with people other than my friends. However, I didn’t know anyone going into this study group and going to a completely new place made me anxious. Even when I tried to calm down on the drive over, the nerves were still there. It was crazy, no matter how hard I tried to convince myself it was okay, my heart was still racing and my hands were shaking. I was afraid it was going to be awkward and that I just wouldn’t fit in.
Getting to the “host” house and meeting everyone was… well awkward to say the least.
I didn’t really speak that much and when I did I felt like what I was saying was uninteresting or flat out dumb.
But God knew exactly what I needed tonight.
We went over Matthew 6:25-33, which talks about giving up your anxieties to God and seeking the kingdom of Heaven. Even though I had read that passage of scripture dozens of times before tonight, I really needed to hear it again in that moment. We discussed that God knows what we need, even when we don’t, and that if we let Him, He will provide.
At the beginning of the study, I felt like I didn’t belong.
I was honestly kind of bummed that I was “stuck” in that group all semester. However, I remembered about halfway through our bible study that these emotions were EXACTLY what I felt at the beginning of this past summer at camp, which turned out to be the best summer of my life. So after we were done with my discussion, I gave my anxieties up to God and just like that, my nerves just stopped. My heart rate slowed, my hands stopped shaking; I physically felt a change wash over me. I ended up staying and talking to the girls in the group afterward for a good 30 minutes, and it was so awesome getting to know all of them.
Basically, I encourage you to be intentional in what God is telling you to do. It doesn’t matter what it is, God really knows what’s best for you. He will provide.
” (25) Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? (26) Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? (27) Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? (28) And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. (29) Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. (30) If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, you of little faith? (31) So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ (32) For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. (33) But seek first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
All the love,
August 29, 2019 @ 7:37 pm
Love it! Keep posting. God is doing great things in you and through you.
August 30, 2019 @ 8:24 am